This Is: The Eden Paper
A personal reintroduction to a more curious, honest, and open-ended chapter.
Okay, hi.
Welcome to the first official article of this new version of The Eden Paper.
Which feels a little funny to say because I know I’ve introduced new versions of my work before. So maybe the real question is: Will this identity crisis actually stick?
Honestly, I think it might.
feel free to watch the full youtube video here, or keep reading below
When we last left off, I had just shared a series of essays and videos in a collection that I called the Foundation series. It was my genuine my attempt to pull everything I believed into one clear philosophy that I could build the rest of my work around.
And now, in true 3/5 fashion, I am burning it to the ground. Lol.
If you saw it, you saw it. If you didn’t, it’s fine. Maybe I’ll create an archive one day. For now, just know that it helped me realize something important:
I don’t actually want to have one concrete worldview.
I was trying so hard to create a philosophy I could build everything around. Something polished and consistent that would tell you exactly what I believe and give me a clear lane to stay inside. The only problem is that the more I learn, the more I realize how much I don’t know.
Every new book, conversation, or idea leads me into another rabbit hole. I discover a different perspective, make a connection I hadn’t considered before, and suddenly I have five new questions. My point of view keeps evolving because I keep evolving.
I kept treating that like a branding problem when, really, it’s one of the most honest things about me. I’m curious. I follow ideas. I notice connections between subjects that don’t usually sit beside one another. I reconsider things. I change my mind.
But I kept holding parts of that process back because I felt like I had to become an expert before I was allowed to speak, as though every thought I shared needed to become a position I could defend forever. That kept me more restricted than I realized.
What makes my spiritual journey meaningful isn’t that I’ve arrived at one concrete set of answers; it’s my ability to hold different perspectives, make connections, and remain open to being changed by what I learn. I didn’t always recognize that as a strength, perhaps because we tend to reward people for having clear, fixed ideas more than we reward them for thinking out loud and evolving in public.
So I’ve been wondering: what would it look like to let go of the pressure to be a guru and instead create a space where different spiritual and intellectual ideas can sit beside one another— a space less focused on offering final answers and more interested in how we gather, question, and make meaning from what we find?
So, why “The Eden Paper”?
This space was originally just called Eden.
Calling it a Paper feels much more aligned with what I want to do here. This isn’t meant to be a finished philosophy or a set of beliefs for you to follow. It’s an ongoing collection of thoughts, questions, conversations, people, and ideas—something that can keep evolving as I do.
What happens here now?
The Eden Paper is becoming a space for spiritual and intellectual curiosity. A place where I can share what I’m thinking about before I’ve turned it into a polished teaching or figured out exactly what it means.
I’ll write personal reflections, document rabbit holes, and explore the questions I can’t stop thinking about across spirituality, religion, philosophy, psychology, astrology, Human Design, consciousness, the body, and whatever else catches my attention.
I also want to spotlight people whose work and perspectives I find fascinating. I want to interview people who help us see something differently, introduce you to ideas you may not have come across before, and bring subjects into conversation that don’t usually sit at the same table.
Some articles will be deep dives. Some will be personal. Some may simply be me showing up to say, “Wait, I just learned this, and now we need to talk about it.”
I also want to explore how different traditions and frameworks attempt to explain the same parts of being human. Where they overlap, where they disagree, what they help us see, and what they might be missing.
That doesn’t mean I’m going to believe everything I explore or treat every idea as equally true. Discernment still matters, of course.
I want to be curious without becoming gullible. Skeptical without becoming cynical. Open to different perspectives without abandoning myself inside any of them.
And honestly, this is also part of healing my visibility wound.
I’ve been comfortable sharing once I can explain exactly what something means. I’ve been much less comfortable letting people see the question, the half-formed connection, or the idea I’m fascinated by but haven’t fully figured out yet.
I worried that exploring something would look like endorsing it. I worried people would misunderstand me. Mostly, I worried I would change my mind after letting everyone watch me form an opinion.
But I probably will change my mind.
That’s what happens when you keep learning.
So, this first article is me officially giving myself permission to do that in public. To share the process, not only the polished conclusion. To follow what interests me without immediately turning it into a philosophy, framework, or five-part course.
Maybe that’s why this version feels like it might actually stick. I’m not trying to create another identity I’ll eventually outgrow. I’m creating enough room to keep growing.
So, welcome to The Eden Paper.
Expect honest thoughts, interesting people, unexpected connections, and plenty of rabbit holes.
I’m very happy you’re (still) here. 🍎
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Love this! Very relatable when you feel like you can't say anything until you're absolutely sure, but you keep learning and changing so that process never really ends.