i found the miracle in staying open....
puerto rico, voice reclamation & soft devotion.
hey there, soulmates—
i needed a little break from writing after the last few letters (iykyk). sharing my heart so vulnerably, especially around my divine counterpart, brought up a lot. not just in the writing, but in the quiet after.
i’m still moving through that grief in a way. it hasn’t been a sudden ending, but a soft, slow acceptance of what no longer fits. i’m grieving the version of our relationship that doesn’t align with who i’m becoming—to make space for the potential of something new to be born, without him here physically during that process (whew).
it’s hard. holding space for a love so deep, while also standing in the truth that it can’t stay the way it was.
but maybe that’s what real love is—
me going first. choosing me, first.
not to leave them behind,
but to invite the shift that might bring us back to each other someday, as clearer versions of ourselves.
it’s not easy to process and share in real time. but it’s honest. and that’s what i’ve always promised to bring here. i know i’m not the only one moving through this kind of grief. maybe yours looks different. but i’ve heard from so many of you who’ve said, “i saw myself in your words”. and i just want to say thank you. it made being seen feel safe.
with that being said, don’t be surprised if he comes back up in future newsletters, lol.
my trip to puerto rico: staying open to miracles
i’m finally able to share something that’s been close to my heart for weeks. i was invited to puerto rico by discover puerto rico as part of a partnership with the calm app! this collaboration introduced a suite of immersive audio experiences; guided meditations, soundscapes, and a sleep story narrated by lin-manuel miranda, all designed to showcase puerto rico as a sanctuary for wellness and reflection.
the invitation to this trip came out of nowhere—completely unexpected, but deeply aligned. from the moment it landed in my inbox, it just felt right. the experience itself was a curated journey through the island’s natural beauty, from the lush landscapes of el yunque to the calm, healing energy of the beach. it wasn’t just about visiting puerto rico—it was about reconnecting. softening. remembering what it feels like to really be held by nature.
due to the nature of the partnership, i had to wait for content approvals before sharing my experiences. while i did post some teasers on my stories, i held back from fully expressing the depth of what this trip meant to me. now, with everything finalized, i can finally open up about it.
after a season marked by letting go—of people, identities, and long-held dreams—this journey served as a poignant reminder that there’s still so much more to embrace. i met new people who reignited my laughter, i discovered joy in unexpected moments, and, most profoundly, i felt seen in ways i hadn’t before. being chosen for this experience affirmed that good things can find me without relentless pursuit. connecting with people who see me the way i see myself was extremely fulfilling.
i’ve come to understand that the first step to welcoming miracles is believing in their possibility. this unexpected journey was a testament to that belief.
a new lens: switching to placidus house system (???)
recently, i started reading my astrology chart through the placidus house system and it’s opened up a whole new layer of clarity.
for a while, i used equal house, solely because it’s what one of my mentors taught. then, i leaned into whole sign because it felt simple and clean. but placidus? it’s nuanced. layered. textured. and it’s helping me meet my chart in a way that actually reflects my lived experience. i understand why people don’t lean into it, it’s very complex.
but this shift has also shown me how easy it is to become rigid in spiritual systems. how we cling to someone else’s truth because it seems to work for them. and how quickly that can disconnect us from our own inner knowing.
as i navigate this, i’ve realized: i don’t want to be the kind of astrologer or human design practitioner who points out people’s wounds and tells them who to become. i want to create space for people to return to themselves. to explore. to question. to experiment.
this has also shaped how i want to show up on social media. not as someone with answers, but as someone practicing embodiment. someone who’s willing to be seen in the middle of becoming, changing perspectives constantly simply because i can.
new on youtube: luxury, care & locs
in my newest video, i take you along for my salon visit at be lavish locs and honestly, it was such a treat!
i’ve heard it all… that locs are “low maintenance,” “dirty,” or that you should only use raw, natural products and nothing else. but none of that has ever sat right with me. this is hair in its most honest, unaltered form. it’s powerful. it’s sacred. and it deserves luxury. it deserves to be cared for with intention, treated like the delicacy it is. not because it needs saving, but because it’s worthy of softness, nourishment, and reverence. always.
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gemini new moon/sagittarius full moon: grounding devotion into daily life
as we’re coming off the recent full moon in sagittarius, i’m reflecting on the intentions set during the gemini new moon, which illuminated my sixth house of daily rituals, routines, and well-being. this lunar cycle has been a journey of integrating the spiritual insights i’ve gathered into tangible daily practices.
i’ve returned to handwriting in my journal! a practice that feels more intimate and grounding than typing. there’s something profoundly connecting about pen to paper, allowing thoughts to flow freely and authentically.
i’ve also started working with a trainer to anchor my wellness goals into something tangible. for a while now, i’ve understood how my energy works — its rhythms, its needs — but i’ve reached a point where structure feels like the missing piece. this new chapter is about building routines that support the life i’m stepping into. having someone guide the physical side of that has helped me honor what i know about my body while still challenging myself to grow. i’m also getting clearer on the supplements my body actually needs. tending to my physical vessel feels like tending to the foundation that will hold all this creativity i feel building inside me!
this period has also been about recognizing that i can’t hold space for others in the way i aspire to if i’m not first holding that space for myself. it’s not about perfection but about consistent, compassionate self-practice. this “in-between” phase has become a fertile ground for asking:
how can i embody the spiritual work i advocate for in my own daily life before guiding others to do the same?
this introspection is steering the evolution of soul tides. rather than rushing to launch the next offering, i’m focusing on building a structure that supports the version of me capable of carrying soul tides with integrity and depth.
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notes from my journal: entering my saturn return in the 3rd house
my saturn return is beginning now in aries, transiting my third house—and it’s been asking me to bring structure to the way i speak, share, and move ideas into form.
i knew this transit would be big for me, so recently i took the saturn in aries masterclass with one of my favorites — ayshea durrani (@oath.oracle). something she said stuck with me deeply: saturn loves discipline, but you can offer it devotion.
not punishment. not pressure. devotion. that shifted everything.
for me, saturn in the third house means the work is in my voice—how i express, how i share, how i take up space with my words.
it’s asking me to own my voice. to speak clearly, even when i feel like i’m still defining what i believe. to stop waiting for the perfect moment or perfect phrasing, and just show up as i am.
the notes from my journal series is one way i’ve started honoring this saturn work. it’s me experimenting with new containers for my voice. that format is starting to feel like a bridge between me and the world i’m building with soul tides.
thank you for being here
this space is changing because i’m changing. and i’m trusting the people meant to walk with me will feel that. thank you for seeing me through the shifting seasons. thank you for being part of this process.
until next time,
kaice