currently: in-between identities
at the threshold of the new beginning i’ve been working so hard for.
hey there soulmates,
the color of transition
lately i’ve been drawn to this gorgeous mint green color. not just noticing it, but pulled toward it. mint green is that in-between shade: not the deep richness of emerald, not the neon brightness of lime, but something softer, fresher, like a threshold. it feels like the exact color of my life right now — suspended between who i was and who i’m becoming.
the summer that carried me here
my season of travel began in late july, and as i write this at the end of august, i’m just now returning home to atlanta after three full weeks away. each stop along the way felt like its own chapter, a mirror of where i’ve been and where i’m going.
baltimore (july)
this is where it all started. i flew back to my hometown, and as always, baltimore grounded me. being there during times of transition feels like plugging myself back into the source. a reminder of where i come from and what has always held me.
jamaica (early august)
jamaica always feels like medicine for me. traveling there with family this summer felt especially nourishing! exploring, trying new foods, moving slower, soaking in the warmth and vibrancy of the island. i even caught myself imagining what it would be like to have a home there one day.
it was also while i was in jamaica that i received the first drafts of the soul tides designs (!!!).
to be holding the beginnings of something i’ve been dreaming of, in a place that already feels like a soul-home, felt perfectly aligned. a merging of inspiration, roots, and future vision.
los angeles (mid-august)
los angeles held both confirmation and initiation for me. most importantly, i met my manager face-to-face for the first time since starting my trial back in march. i’d promised myself i wouldn’t sign a full contract until i’d met him in person. keeping that promise to myself and feeling affirmed in our connection was such a moment of self-trust.
of course, old fears surfaced — could i really trust myself this time? would i slip back into patterns of being manipulated like in the past? but i felt so clearly that i’m not the same person i was before. i’ve built new tools, stronger discernment, and a steadier foundation. meeting him confirmed that i can trust both myself and this timing.
la also gave me space to play. i had my first private pilates class with Liberty at the most beautiful studio i’ve ever seen — the Heated Room. it made every movement feel cleansing, strengthening, and supportive. i left feeling lengthened and alive in my body, and it made me excited to weave pilates more regularly into my routine. i also tried my first yoni steam and a feminine energy cleansing session — both found through classpass. i’d never done anything like it before, but it felt deeply clearing and powerful, like releasing layers i didn’t realize i was carrying.
i’ll definitely be exploring more of these practices. and since i’m now a classpass ambassador (yay!) you can try a whole free month using my link. i’ll receive a small commission if you sign up, which feels like another aligned way of sharing what’s been supporting me.
la had its lighter joys too: speakeasies, beaches, good food, and a moment at torrance beach where a photographer gifted me two of his photo stickers (ironically, photos of the tides in the ocean) . that small act of generosity felt symbolic of my journey with soul tides — a reminder to embody the energy of what i’m creating and stay open to receiving without forcing.
back to baltimore (late august)
coming full circle, i returned to baltimore one more time. this time, i received the finalized drafts of soul tides designs. it felt like the perfect closing chapter — to be home while holding the completed vision of something i’ve been building toward all summer.
the eclipse portal
eclipse season is here, and i feel the weight of it. not in a bad way, but in that way where the air feels thick, almost pressurized. like i’m standing in a hallway between two doors. one already closed, one not yet open.
this season unfolds in three movements:
august 22nd/23rd → new moon in virgo at 0°, opening the portal.
september 7th → lunar eclipse in pisces, closing out the last six-month cycle and revealing what we’ve integrated.
september 21st → solar eclipse in virgo at 29°! the last degree of virgo — a place of mastery, culmination, and initiation all at once.
what’s wild about this virgo–pisces eclipse portal is that it began with the new moon in virgo at 0° and will close with the solar eclipse in virgo at 29°. the very first degree, and the very last. the moon will literally walk the entire sign before the door fully opens. that symbolism hit me hard: this is what mastery looks like. not skipping to the ending, but moving step by step, lesson by lesson, living the whole terrain.
and i’ve already felt that in my body. i was so excited for the virgo new moon that i tried to do a juice cleanse to prepare myself… and it completely flopped. i wanted to blame myself, like i wasn’t disciplined enough, but i realized this is exactly what the portal is for: trial and error. noticing what doesn’t hold, what my body actually needs. maybe next time it’s juice-until-dinner. maybe my cycle played a role. either way, it’s teaching me.
that’s when it clicked: this isn’t seed-planting yet. it’s soil-clearing. it’s testing supports, gathering tools, pulling threads together before i plant anything real. and that’s not failure — that’s the curriculum of this portal.
an activation of my destiny
this eclipse portal feels especially alive for me because it’s happening on my natal north/south node axis of pisces and virgo. it feels like an initiation into virgo mastery — not perfectionism, but devotion and discernment. reminding me i already hold pisces wisdom from past lifetimes. the point isn’t to leave it behind, but to integrate it. this nodal reversal is teaching me: you can’t have one without the other.
and funnily enough, this truth landed for me while rewatching that’s so raven. in one episode, raven has a vision of a necklace she’ll receive for christmas. impatient, she sneaks it early, which causes chaos. at the end, she’s given the chance to go back in time, put the necklace back, and rewrite the moment. she still remembers what went wrong, but she gets to do it differently.
that’s exactly how this season feels: i can see why the past didn’t work, and now i have the opportunity to shift how i show up. it’s a reminder that if you already know something is yours, you don’t need to grab for it before its time. forcing it just creates mess. instead, you wait. you trust. and in the waiting, you live. you let the moment ripen.
this is the initiation i feel myself stepping into — virgo north node energy, guided by pisces wisdom. a chance to course-correct with memory, foresight, and trust in timing.
current favorites
from sunscreen sticks to protein shakes to the newest addition to my wellness stack, i’ve rounded up some of my current favorites, supporting me in all ways, on shopmy. you can check them out HERE — full descriptions, links, and why i’m loving each one.
service as initiation
what’s becoming clearer to me in this portal is how i want to step into service. not from a place of need, proving, or performance, but from an overfilling cup. for me, that means investing in myself first, so i can show up with more clarity, more discernment, and more energy for the people who need me. not only online, but in real life too.
this summer set the stage for that, and this eclipse portal is where i’m choosing to refine it. to get clear on what balance actually feels like for me — without distractions, without force. to create a foundation that sustains me long after the pressure of this season passes.
and as i prepare for the launch of soul tides, i can feel how aligned this timing really is. the portal is helping me clear the noise, integrate the lessons, and build from a place of rootedness. so when i do step forward, it’s not rushed or reactive — it’s steady. it’s embodied.
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journal with me
eclipses don’t test us on perfection; they test us on embodiment. it’s also not an ideal time to manifest. instead, reflect and integrate. here are a few prompts to sit with as we move through this portal:
what lessons from the past six months feel complete in me now?
what is life asking me to release, even if i don’t feel fully ready?
where am i being invited to step into a new identity or path, even if i can’t see the full picture yet?
what does trusting “the pause before the leap” look like for me right now?
which daily rituals or routines keep me grounded when everything else feels like it’s shifting?
✨ eclipses remind us that life moves in cycles — beginnings tucked inside endings, pauses charged with possibility. right now, i’m in between identities. and while it’s uncomfortable, i also know it’s sacred.
with so much love,
kaice
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